How on earth did that happen?

A couple of days on and I still haven't quite processed the extraordinary events of the weekend. I normally spend my Friday evenings watching Game of Thrones with my husband (if you've seen this season's finale, say what?!) and my Saturday mornings being woken up at an ungodly hour and then doing the weekly shop. Yes, it's non-stop excitement in North Wales for this mama to two unruly cherubs. But the weekend just gone? Really? I've decided to return from my blogging break a little earlier than planned to put my thoughts down on screen but I'm not sure that I've got the words. It was everything. And more. And sometimes, a little worse. And occasionally, terrifying. Yes, it was BritMums Live 2015, the UK's biggest social media and blogging conference.  I came, I saw, and I left with the Brilliance in Blogging award for Fresh Voice and on a complete high from reading one of my most simple but favourite posts at the bloggers' keynote session despite suffering from a horrendous case of stage fright.

How on earth did all that happen?!

I was so thrilled to be a finalist in the Brilliance in Blogging awards but so convinced that I wasn't going to win that I almost didn't get up when my name was announced. I actually couldn't speak when the gorgeous Carol Smilie (who hasn't aged a day since DIY SOS) asked me if I wanted to say a few words. I hadn't realised that it was a rhetorical question ... my answer of 'no, thank you' was duly ignored and a microphone put to my mouth. I can't really remember what I finally managed to mumble. I think it was something along the lines of not liking large crowds or bright lights. Inspiring, right? No career in after-dinner speaking for me! Thank you to Mari for keeping me on my feet when I walked off the stage and to Sarah and Jess for enveloping me in huge hugs and keeping my weeping at bay when I walked back to the table. It was a bizarrely emotional moment even for someone as even tempered as me (I'm mostly unflappable ... except for when it comes to spotlights and public speaking, it seems).

I'm certain that on a different day, any one of the other finalists could have won. If you haven't already, please do check them out: Carry on Katy (super funny), Hello Archie (super beautiful), Not So Smug Now (super cool), Running in Lavender (super lovely). They were, and are, equally deserving.

To be honest, winning has stopped me in my tracks a little bit.

Almost like, 'Eeek, how do I top that and what on earth do I do now?'

Don't get me wrong, I'm seriously thrilled to have that award in my possession, and to each and every one of you who nominated me and set me off on this path, I want to say a huge thank you. I couldn't be more grateful. However, I'm sitting here trying not to get too caught up in all the excitement. I'm mindful that it's documenting the relatively everyday, simple things about our lives and our home that I enjoy most and I don't want to make any significant changes just because more eyes are turned towards this little space than before (that could be a temporary thing though, if they find they're not all that keen on pegboards, crafts or countryside walks).

Maybe I'm overthinking things. I probably need someone to pat me on the shoulder and say, 'as you are'. There's no need to change for change's sake. A cliché perhaps but one that's fitting. So yes, whether you've been with me since the very beginning, started reading at some point during the past ten months, or have stumbled across this blog in the last few days, while my head has been momentarily turned by the bright lights of the city and the glamour of an awards ceremony, I know that my fascination with coffee, cakespooky places to run and the fact that my children don't sleep will resume shortly. And I'm not at all unhappy about that.

I'm having to restrain myself from ending this post with 'Peace out'. Who knows why, but it's just popped in to my head and my fingers really want to type it. It's feels right but oh so very wrong. A neighbour of ours in Zurich used to say it all the time and it really cracked me up, especially when she bumped her chest and did the peace sign to go with it. I don't know what's made me think of that tonight or why I'm sharing it but hey, PEACE OUT!